Saturday, September 4, 2010

Dad's Birthday - I miss him

 Pete (my brother), myself, and my dad (Larry Jones) 2006

Today is my dad's birthday, he would have been 55. We lost him in Feb of this year. The past few months have been hard for me, every time I had some great creative epiphany my first thought would be to share it with my dad. He was always ready to listen and offer advice if it was needed, he was a kindred spirit in a creative and craftsman way, as well as my dad. He was one of the few people in my world who really got me, how I think, how I create, WHY I do what I do. He was never one to ask "why" when I had something to share with him, he just "got it". I really miss that. I miss the great big bear hugs he used to give that made me feel like I was 5 again. I miss the sound of his laugh, what a great and infectious laugh he had, it added so much to the world.
Even though I carry him in my heart and I'm surrounded by family and friends that love me, in a way it's been a lonely time.
I am happy because he is in a better place surrounded by those that love him. I'm thankful for his life and the time we had together. Glad I had a dad as awesome as he was who was encouraging and proud.
I love you forever dad, Happy Birthday!

I also want to wish a Happy Birthday to my nephew Tristan, today is his birthday as well. His first without his grandpa.

I came across a song this week that reminded me of my dad. It was written by a man I used to go to school with, Joe Purdy. Here are the Lyrics...
"Can't Get It Right Today" Lyrics
I just can't seem to get it right today
I just can't seem to get it right today
I just can't seem to get it right today
I guess I'm gonna give up
Oh, I guess I'm gonna give up

It's nearly been a year since he's been gone
And we still sing his goodbye songs
Goodness knows she should move on
But she just can't let him go
No, she just can't let him go

I'm sorry if I made you want to cry
I'm sorry if I made you want to cry
You should know, I never meant to hide
I just hate bringing you down
Oh, I just hate bringing you down

I just can't seem to get it right today
I just can't seem to get it right today
I just can't seem to get it right today
I guess I'm gonna give up
Oh, I guess I'm gonna give up

And I dropped my paintbrush in the dirt
Still remember just how much that hurt
I cut my hand and wait for it to work
But I just couldn't bring him back
No, I just couldn't bring him back

I just can't seem to get it right today
Oh, I just can't seem to get it right today
I just can't seem to get it right today
I guess I'm gonna give up
Oh, I guess I'm gonna give up
Oh I guess I'm gonna give up
Oh I guess I'm gonna give up
Oh I guess I'm gonna give up
Oh I guess I'm gonna give up
Oh Lord I said I guess I'm gonna give up
Oh Lord I said I guess I'm gonna give up

The song is the 5th one down if you want to hear it, it's a great song. My dad would have liked it. He had a great love for music and played guitar and taught my brother and I to play guitar as well, now we teach our kids.

                           
Send "Can't Get It Right Today" Ringtone to your Cell

I am in the deep woods, camping out, honoring my dad in the place he would have loved to be, and enjoying every minute of my kids and making memories with them.

I hope your weekend is great and filled with creating good memories with those you love.


7 comments:

Linda in New Mexico said...

So sorry for your loss. It has been 6 years since my Mother passed away and I still miss her very much.
Be well, The Olde Bagg, Linda

Suztats said...

Hold your memories close to your heart, and cherish each one. My father passed away 7 years ago and shall always be missed. How wonderful that you are honouring him by being a wonderful parent to your own children, as he was to you. Blessings.

Romeo said...

Wow! What wonderful memories you have of your Dad. I am happy for you to have had such a special person who "got it" and shared so much with you. I am so sorry he was taken so young in his life. There is no doubt at all that he is still with you and watches over you - with a bond like that how could he not?

Hugs,

"Her" and Romeo

Diane said...

Thespa, I'm so sorry about your dad....I never knew mine. He died 2 months after he and my mom married. She had just gotten pregnant with me. So I understand about missing someone...
Hugs, Diane

Charlene said...

I know how you feel about the loss of your Dad & I am so SORRY for your pain. I lost mine 5 years ago in February & there is still a hole in my heart. You are lucky to have other family members that support you. I wish I had that. Good luck with winning the sponsorship. I'll try to get by there to vote. Have a great week. Charlene

Auntie Cake said...

I have been totally thinking about you with your dad lately. My dad just had surgery, and it didn't go so well, but he is still here. I think of you when I start feeling sorry for myself, then I give my dad a big hug. Sending you a big hug too!

Jillayne said...

Thespa, this is a beautiful post and a beautiful tribute to your Dad. It is a different world when your parent isn't in it, and I know what you mean about hugs that make you feel you were 5 again. I don't get them, but give them to my own grown-up children. The love in our hearts can be passed on and while future generations may not know the person at the source, they will feel their legacy.

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